Me.

Holy crap.  I am officially writing a blog.  I made it through the 2+ hours of creating an account and then messing with the settings and the layout of the 628 blog-loving-options.  Seriously, all of that made using new iPhone features seem like straight up child's play. But I've made it this far - whoop whoop!

So here's why I'm here. I recently was talking with two of my friends who told me that I should write a blog. I laughed. They reassured me that it could be a good idea, and that sometimes I'm even funny. They said that I have had a lot of experiences that other people might really relate to. Again, I laughed, and sarcastically responded: "Why?  Because I'm a woman in my 30's who has lived through more than most 90 year olds have?". They both responded that yes -- that is exactly why.

Oh. Well...maybe they had something there. When your life has been full of unexpected curveballs, for better or for worse you develop a level of understanding of a wide variety of topics. Maybe something I've learned along the way could help someone or make them feel less alone...and maybe that "someone" is you!

Well saddle up...because This. Is. Happening.

So here's my story. I'm a single mom, and I have been for the majority of my kid's lives. No, I never pictured myself as a single parent when I was much younger and was playing M.A.S.H. with my friends...but it turns out that back then I was working with 1/2 of a brain and never knew it. So yeah. 

Basically I've just been doing everything all on my own for a long time. I always am: the money earner, the mortgage and bill payer, the one whohas to figure out what we're going to eat for dinner (I hate this one so much), the driver to all places, the decision maker, the disciplinarian, the life coach, and the cruise ship director. 

There have been a lot of times that it has felt so freaking hard I just want to give up and go lock my bedroom door and hide. And let's be real -- there have been times that I have done that (trust me, it was the lesser of two evils at that point). Problem is though - that's not actually a viable option when you're the ONLY PARENT that your kids have rely on every single day. So I resist running and hiding and I simply keep on keeping on.

I get what it's like to go through the awful process of a divorce. If you're there right now -- I am sorry. It simply sucks, and there is no way around that -- only through. But the good news is -- getting out of a bad relationship is like taking a 100 pound invisible rock off of your chest. You didn't realize before how much you were struggling to simply breathe -- but you were. And as it turns out, there is so much more to enjoy in life when you can put your energy into other things besides just getting air. You soon be able to see that life alone is infinitely better than being in a relationship that makes you feel like you're alone. I can not emphasize that enough. 

If you are someone who has health issues -- I understand what it is like to be there. I was diagnosed with a rare neurological disease (Narcolepsy) about 12 years ago. Narcolepsy is far more difficult to live with every day than people understand. It's sure not glamorous or sexy, but yes - I do understand what it is like to live with a chronic disease.  

And most importantly, I understand what it's like to be a parent to these tiny humans while living in such a crazy world. I spend every day hoping that they somehow turn out to be productive adults who are living a life consistent with the values I've tried to teach them! I know how hard/stressful/scary this one is Every. Single. Day. 

Are you ready for the good news?! You are not alone! I hear you, and I am right here with you. 

And the even better news is: I might even make you feel better once you realize how much you have it all together compared to me. And for that, you're welcome in advance. :) Just thinking of the idea that my own chaos might actually serve a purpose to help others out makes me happy!

In the meantime, hopefully I can sometimes make you laugh while I check off my bucket list item # 249 "Start a blog and see if anyone gives a crap enough to read it".  And according to Single Dad Laughing's blog there are only like 50 million other blogs already out there...so clearly I'm jumping on this whole blogging trend right when it's new and trendy. Oh wait...that was more like 15 years ago.

What?! Don't judge me, okay? Apparently I like to take the concept of "fashionably late" to a whole new level. Or decade. Details details...sheesh.

So yep - this is me. Imperfect, inappropriate, and most likely ill-suited to be writing a blog. BUT...here I am anyway. So -- let's rock this casbah already!

Lastly...I snapped a quick selfie to help me remember what it felt like after I finally finished my first blog post...at 2:37am. 😂 My eyes say it all. 




- Sara 



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  1. I'm so glad I stumbled upon your blog! Practical tips (painting the sofa) and I laughed the whole time! You and I seem to have more in common then just narcolepsy and 2 marriages (although I've never been divorced - yep that messes with person's brain)! We must both understand that in order to live your life to its fullest then you have to be able to laugh at yourself (and in my case at least all the failures and falls and dislocations I suffer)!
    So glad to know you are out there. I'm going to try and follow your blogs- if I can stay awake!

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  2. I'm so glad I stumbled upon your blog! Practical tips (painting the sofa) and I laughed the whole time! You and I seem to have more in common then just narcolepsy and 2 marriages (although I've never been divorced - yep that messes with person's brain)! We must both understand that in order to live your life to its fullest then you have to be able to laugh at yourself (and in my case at least all the failures and falls and dislocations I suffer)!
    So glad to know you are out there. I'm going to try and follow your blogs- if I can stay awake!

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